Stop judging me… Do you feel judged? Do you hold back your feelings because you’re afraid you will be judged for what you want to say? I started thinking about it and I feel like this is an important topic to discuss…
I had a wonderful breakthrough with one of my best friends recently. She came to me with an apology and instead of saying, “no worries, it’s ok…” like I usually do, I actually shared how I felt, was honest and open and was true to who I am. We then moved forward… What a concept! I was honest, she heard me in a positive light and we let it all go. We later had a glass of wine- babies were with daddy’s, and we applauded our maturity and friendship. I loved this. It made me feel true to myself… Why did this sweater make me think of our conversation? Well, I realized that sometimes I hold back what I’m feeling because I dont want somone to judge me, I don’t want to hurt someone’s feelings or maybe because I just don’t want the confrontation. Like, my days are jammed packed and I don’t have the time to get into “discussions” or serious talks. They can be draining as I’m sure you all know. Anyway, my whole point is, my girlfriend is logical and aware of herself so I felt safe to express myself. Sometimes I don’t because I don’t want someone to judge me. Trust me, the industry I’ve chosen judges me enough, I don’t need my friends doing it as well. The thing is- the friend’s that do judge me, aren’t really true friends anyway… I’ve let a bunch of friends go over the years and I now see how necessary it was. If someone doesn’t make you feel good, they make you feel judged, maybe it’s time to look a little closer at that friendship and evaluate if it is indeed a true friendship. I’m not going to hold on to something, someone or an idea anymore if it doesn’t serve me in a positive way. I have too much love to give for it not to be fully reciprocated. This little boy doesn’t judge me, he loves me just the way I am… We should follow our children’s lead. They know what’s up… Anyway, that’s what I’ve been thinking about.
Hope today is treating you well✌🏻