I can’t believe today at 10:16 AM you turned two years old. It’s crazy how emotional I am these days. As I’m writing this my nose is starting to burn as tears roll down my face. So many mixed emotions. I wonder how many times I’ve said I have so many mixed emotions over the past two years. The struggle between wanting to keep you my little baby and enjoying watching you grow and blossom into the sweetest little boy. Our daily conversations fill my heart with so much joy while blowing me away at the same time. I can’t believe I’m having conversations with you… 👼🏼 The world you are soaking up is amazing to watch and I am so grateful I get to witness to your magical journey. Because of you, my heart has forever changed. I feel raw, like my heart is split wide open and it is more full than it has ever been before. I never knew being a mother could feel this way, I’ve never felt this way until you came along. Thank you for calling me mommy. Thank you for calling out to me when you need something. Thank you for loving me and allowing me the pleasure of raising you and learning from you simultaneously. You are such a bright light in this world, Lennox. I’m so excited to watch you grow and continue to absorb the world around you. You will always be my baby, my favorite tiny human, even when you are towering over me. I wonder how long that will take? Give me a few years, babe. My heart needs that. I’m so grateful I can still pick you up- my back hates me, but my heart is grateful.
With all the love I can muster in the entire world, Happy Birthdaysweet baby boy! Your birth-day was the greatest day of my life.🙏🏻👼🏼💗