It’s so hard for me to believe that you are actually 15 months old… Like, what??! Oh my goodness… How have 15 months passed by already? The days seem to fly by and I’m just trying to keep up. To keep up with you, to keep up with your infectious spirit and to keep up with the speed that you are growing. My heart has never felt so raw and vulnerable. It’s the biggest blessing but it’s also a challenge. My soul and my faith are being tested and I’m trying my damnedest to pass the test! Ha. I know there is no passing- only doing my best at all times. That being said, every heartache, every growing pain and every belly laugh make lol these intense feelings and experiences worth it. I feel so blessed🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
You’re so sweet, Lennox. That has to be my greatest accomplishment- raising a son with your sweet and loving demeanor. Thank you for showing me such kindness. Thank you for showing me patience and grace. Thank you for that smile that warms my heart and literally melts my soul. And your laughter… My goodness, I have never heard more pure and sincere joy. That’s what you exude my love, joy! I am trying my best to soak up the lessons you are teaching me. One of the most important lessons I am learning from you is to create my own joy. Once I’ve accomplished joy, I then have to fully allow myself to “experience” it! What I witness in you so clearly is the creating and allowing… As an adult, I see that people sometimes have difficulty with those simple steps. So hopefully we all can start to watch and learn more from our children. My goal is to continue to learn from each other and grow together, being the best human beings we can possibly be… I love you, son. You are my sun, and my moon, and my stars!
Love you always,